Results of Today's Visit with the Oncologist

Well, the news is neither great nor terrible...it is probably good news, but I guess I am feeling disappointed because I had high expectations of being in remission since I have been feeling so well. The scans showed no change from the scans in July. The good news is that there are no new tumors and the two remaining are no larger than July. The not so good news is that the tumors remain active and the one in my neck is close to my spinal cord. So the oncologist says that he gets paid to worry and wants to see if the radiologist/oncologist can radiate that tumor again without damaging the spinal column. If so, I will have the radiation and then we will wait a while for scans. If not, I will have scans again in two months to see if there are any changes. I have to think that the IL-2 treatment did work to some extent since I have no new tumors and the existing ones are no bigger. Also, it may take my immune system longer to knock out the existing tumors and hopefully the will have shrunk on the next scans

So I continue to need your healing thoughts and prayers coming my way. Don't worry, I will get back to my positive frame a mind soon. Pema Chodron would say that I was clinging too much to one outcome and need to accept what is and find the positives in that.

L'Shanah Tovah

This is the time in the Jewish calendar of reflection on the year that has past. For me it was such a difficult year, but one that I am completing with much hope for the future. I couldn't have endured this therapy without the support, help and caring love of all of you, my dear family and friends. I am so grateful to all of you and want you to know how much I appreciate what you have done for me. So many of you have contributed to my journey through IL-2 treatment and I apologize if I have missed acknowledging what you did or thanking you in person. I so look forward to the year ahead and know that I have the courage and the support to face whatever comes my way.

Wishing you and your families a sweet year.