Overwhelmed

Well, the weight of what I am facing came crashing down around me last night. It is during those times that I greatly miss Stefan and Red. One feels so alone and it is very hard not to feel panic and to have scenarios spinning out of control. A hug or word of encouragement is so needed at those moments. Sophie can give me a lick or tail wag but it is not the same.

Righted myself this morning after a long walk with Sophie and lunch with SueAnn. She is such an amazing friend who knows when to listen and just the right things to say to put me back in the right mental perspective.

Tomorrow I head up to Portland and meet with the radiation oncologist early on Tuesday. Don't know whether I will be getting one dose of radiation or a series. I hope to be back in Corvallis on Wednesday or Thursday to give me time to get organized for next week.